I kneel before you, Most Holy One. The True and Only God. I bow my head in worship and adoration. Your presence fills this place. I stand in awe of your might and power. But how can men say, there is no God? Each day is a testimony of God's existence. He made and controls all things. In the rising of the Sun, and in the setting. My thoughts shall continually be on you. I would rather focus on you, for in you lies my redemption. In this mortal body, I shall praise you. In immortality, I will worship you. In eternity, I will sing your unending praise. In the world without end, I will forever love you.
When I reflect on my past, I know I shouldn't be here now. Perhaps Jail, or the streets. That's where I ought to be. Why did you set me free? Why didn't you give me the verdict I deserve? Why did you pay the price for me? Why take up my shame and condemnation? I don't deserve to be here right now. Perhaps dead, bruised or forgotten. But none of these happened. Someone took it up upon Himself. He says He loves me. He would do anything for me. No price is too great for Him to pay for my life. He keeps calling my name, daily. I'm afraid this love will overwhelm me. Too deep, too intense, so true. I'm afraid I am not worthy of His love. Afterall I haven't done anything to deserve it. But He keeps calling, daily. He wouldn't give up on me. He believes so much in me. He sees something special in me. I doubt if I can resist it any longer. He has paid the price already. What do I have to lose? Perhaps I will give it a try. I did give it a try, and got hooked. He is the epitome of love. Or rather, He is Love. Yes, God is Love and in Him is no guile
Do you love God? To what extent do you love God? What would you forfeit to please God? What would you change in your life, to fit more into His purpose for your life? I love God, but…. I love to please people a lot. These two don't mix. I'm afraid I will lose friends, so I tend to keep mute, rather than hurt their feelings. I don't think that's what Christianity is all about. It's about Truth. Speak the truth, the word of God at all times. Fear no man, only God. Judge not, but shy not. Be bold and courageous, for this journey is not for the faint hearted. Your strength lies in God, never forget that. We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us.
Fill me O Lord with your Spirit. Lead me to the rock that's higher than I. Bend me and remould me. Till I be like thee. Consider my ways, and have pity on me. For I have sinned and gone astray. Desiring to please myself and not you. Seeking for glory where there is none. Whom have I beside you? Without you, there is no me. Whatever I seek is embedded in you. Your ways are perfect and just. I thought I could do it my way. I felt you were too slow. So I decided to give it a try. O what failure I encountered. Indeed its not by power, or by might. But by your Spirit O Lord. Teach me to be patient and wait on you. For your ways are not my ways, your thoughts not my thoughts.
Promises of earthly treasures. Very captivating and luring. Intense pressure and desire to accept them. Will I or will I not? I see them everywhere. Oh what beauty, comfort and affluence. I really desire and yearn for these . I could spin the world with all these. They matter in life, don't they? We need them, don't we? We could change our world with these? At what cost, I wonder? Promises of blissful eternity. I can't see them, but they are real. Not so attractive yet, my eyes see nothing. Only promises, hope and faith. Promises of earthly treasures or eternity? Very competitive and soul bound. Pressure to be accepted, to belong. Which matters the most?
My greatest desire in life is to behold your beauty. To sit in your presence all the days of my life. To live in your perfection and glow in you. To marvel at your amazing creations. Grant me this one thing dear Lord. That I shall never desire another. That you shall be my one and only true love. That I shall not deviate from the path you have laid out for me. Grant Oh Lord, that this love of mine, shall never diminish. That it shall ever glow till eternity. That I will cherish every moment spent with you. Never to take you for granted. I desire to be by your side forever. Doing what pleases you most, worship. To speak the words you love to hear. To gladden your heart with my music.
There is joy in my heart. I will sing praises to Him. He is a good God, very gracious. Plenteous in mercy, slow to anger. I am happier each passing day. It's not the same for many others. The world is full of evil and pain. Yet, He gladdens my heart each day. With a grateful heart, I come this day. To offer this prayer of thanksgiving. To the Alpha and Omega. The beginning and The end. I have searched the whole world. There is none like thee. There is none compared to thee. You are God all by yourself.
Success lies in abiding in you. Outside you is emptiness and failure. Within you is fulfilment and contentment. But I must choose one, Outside or Within. Outside is more thrilling. There is freedom to do what I please. The world revolves around me, not you. I am the boss here, and I call the shots. Within is restricted, though safer. I am free to me, the redeemed me. I rule the world, but only with your scepter. You are the boss, and you call the shots. Success is sure with you, always. Yes, I must make a choice. Outside or Within. I will abide within, restricted but safer. There lies my eternal goal, the greatest success ever.
My place of hope. I have found a place of joy. I won't trade it for anything. Joy which the world cannot give. This I have stumbled upon. I have found a place of succour. I long to run there always. For I am sure of love and affection. No judgement, no hatred. I have found a place of peace. Oh what blissful peace. Peace which the world cannot give. In you I have found it all. I have found a place of love. I can't exchange it for anything. So warm and exhilarating. I am lost there forever. I have found that place of hope. A place to always run to. When life just doesn't add up. When all seems to fall apart.
With a grateful heart I come you Lord. Let all within me give you thanks. You have done that which only you can do. I will continually sing your praise. I wait each day for you to judge. To cast me away from your presence. I wait to see you turn away at the sight of my filt. I watch to see a disdainful look on your face. Yet none is forthcoming. I am unworthy of your magnanimity. Infamous me, incorrigible me, unrepentant me. When will I ever change for the better? Why do you pay so much attention to me? What good will ever come out of this? I'm perplexed by your unwavering love. It just doesn't make sense to me. Why did you die for me? Why bear all that affliction for me? I guess I will rest my case here. I may never understand this great value placed on me. I will wait till we meet in your paradise. When everything will fall into place. Until then, I will sit and wonder how great you are. Until then, I will reciprocate this love to others. Until then, I will sing your praise in deep worship. I will join the host of Heaven to magnify your holy name. Amen.